Hoolliidayyyy....

Norfolk tomorrow, means I'm proper giddy. I've decided to do my favourite things list when I get back. Going to miss blogging, it wont be the same I guess....

Much Love, Speak soon and stay safe!

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Apparantly I'm selfish, I never do anything for anybody.
I find that hard to believe.
I try live my life to please others, it gives me satisfaction
knowing they're happy.

Dearest Dad, I dont think you understand at all....

Love is a funny creature

I've discovered what the lump is in my throat...
Only from simply hearing his voice...
Its called my heart.

<3

I know how to say I love you in many different ways.

You never realise that you love somebody until they're gone....

You've gone for the moment...But you'll be back and we can

do whatever we like, make perfect memories and leave only

footprints and photographs behind.

and she won't infere, I'll make sure of it.

Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars?

"I could really use a wish right now..."


I'm addicted to this song. It reminds me of that boy...Who I've totally messed up with, here I am sat in England in the rain, and he's planning to book a flight from lovely Florida to England to try and make it up to me. I don't want that , i want him to stay and have a lovely time and stop thinking about me. No-body is worth your tears...

Nice one, I've messed this one up, as fucking usual.

I could really use a wish right now...

Hayley Williams, you are not the only lady requiring a wish...

I never wanted to feel like this again, and I knew you'd do it to me, and now I'm back to feeling sick and upset.

What to say, i dont even know any more.

Thats just how the story unfolds I suppose....

I've Finished with the show..

Two updates in one day, wow I really must be desperate or bored.

Or both.


Today has been boring, but not too bad, you may be gone but I still feel rather loved by people, which is always good. A few phone calls with friendly voices have certainly cheered me up tonnes. Thank you for that. I didn't do anything random, or crazy or creative today, but we shall see what tomorrow brings. I wanted another amazing downpour like yesterday but alas no luck today. The rain was pounding the streets, thunder and lightning splitting the sky, I love the weather like this. I like playing in the puddles and dancing in the rain. I did that once, I was cold but the rain soaked my skin and felt so amazing it was unbelievable.

I'm trying to document every second of my life, I feel like I don't wanna miss a thing, or forget a memory...

It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss...

Right, so now you're an even bigger problem to me. Yes lets try forget all about you now you've disappeared. I'm nothing to you, and that's how it should be so I didn't end up getting hurt by you. I hate moaning in my blog but I'm just writing about how I feel.

I want to do something creative, random and crazy, I wanna photography and create a beautiful masterpiece to decieve the eyes, or an ugly truth. But I don't know where the hell to start, you've inspired me, re-lit the creative flame, yet I don't know what to set fire to....

What do you say we leave for california?

So Don't you hate it when you proper annoy yourself silly , I proper frustrate myself I do. I said that I'd never ever feel this way again, and here I am, back at square one and I don't know what to do. I get butterflies thinking of it, and miss it when its gone. I think I need to try and forget, because this isnt doing me any good whatsoever. I daren't read it...

Note to self; Don't get involved anymore...
Problem; I already am, and I theres no quick way out...

Ahh some lyrics just came to mind,already posted in lovely Laura's blog...

He's a wolf, In disguise, and I can't stop staring in those evil eyes...

Streetlights, Stars and Smiles

Before I start my innocent ramblings, I must confess I am addicted to this blog writing thing. Its like, half past 10 in the evening, the night sky is that pretty deep navy that always inspires me to smile. I love the night time, its so full of mystery, quietness and calm that its perfect for thinking. Today has been a good day
Dear self, Going to college was a brill decision, I know you shall excel and show them what you're made of, i also know that i love the people I've met, everyone is so lovely its just a great atmosphere to be in. I just, can't wait for September to roll around!

On another note, the clumps of mascara current falling into my eyes need to be washed off, and then need to find my way into the warmth and safety of my bed, where tomorrow i shall be at approximately 11am. And remain so until i am actually no longer sleepy.

PS: I cant wait for Monday! :)

And Now I'm feeling fine!

First college induction day today.I was so nervous I was actually shaking all over, especially when we arrived but we had like a really friendly group and I met some rather lovely people, and I'm certain I've made friends for life already. I must say I was rather nervous, but it went really went and i really really like it so that's all good.

I just wanted to write this blog about something that's niggling me. I just, I feel like I SHOULD be taking photography further to A-Level, but the uni courses I'm interested in as a first choice don't accept it as a valid subject as its not "academic". Why can't things be simple, and it be accepted, cause i feel i could be really really good at it, and i wanted to do it so badly. I know we have to sacrifice things, but I feel like I'm giving up on a talent somebodies given me.
That sounded so big headed...
In other news, I loved English class today! The teacher Daryl was so enthusiastic and I answered tonnes of questions like the geek I really am. It was great! I still miss Ms Empson and Miss Burton though, they'll always be truly inspirational to me and the best English teachers ever.

What else to say, I love life, I love college, but hate men. Need I say any more?

Feels like summer...

I must start by expressing my undying love for Whitby, it has got to be one of my favourite places to be on earth, I've just got back and i already wish i was back there. Sea breeze blowing my hair, seagulls squealing above your head, the smell of hot chips covered in vinegar. I can't think of a better place to be. A certain someones frequent texts ruined the trip down, and kinda hurt me. but hey ho, I'm a woman as my lovely Laura would say, hold your head high and don't let them get you down. College induction soon, nervous? I bloody well am!